Mama Metamorphosis

I am not interested in fitting into the small box of what you may label a “good mother.”

In a society that constantly tells us to do more to be “good enough,” I know that I am inherently good and enough.

When I silence external pressures, rather than feeling broken, I can become who I am meant to be from the inside out- breaking open and breaking free.

Free to be me.

I surrender to the cyclicality of being a spirit in physical form. I know the divine dance magnetically pulls me to my Self so I can continue to remember, re-integrate, and rise.

Becoming a mother is not a linear process with a starting point of conception and end goal of birth. It is a cyclical process that began before conception and has no ending. As our children grow and evolve, we continue to shed our skin, expand into more spacious support, and dance with them, rising together.

This is Mama Metamorphosis.

I am in a constant process of becoming. There is no linear pathway or end goal because this divine dance is infinite.

Instead of striving to be a butterfly, I realize that I am the egg, caterpillar, pupa, butterfly, and the cycle of metamorphosis itself. I am the whole experience. I am whole.

The caterpillar represents the human experience of existing on this earth and everything that entails.

The butterfly represents higher Self or spirit.

When it is time to expand into new form, I contract into a cocoon to excavate, investigate, re-integrate, and liberate my Self.

Break open, spread my wings to fly, sip sweet nectar, pollinate to support the ecosystem, and enjoy the view.

Remember to surrender to the cycle again and again.

I open my eyes to see the magic unfolding around me.

I open my heart to feel the full experience of being human.

I open my hands to connect with the other spirits that were also divinely contracted to be on earth, here and now with me. They are my dancing partners and mirrors to remind me of my true nature.

To open, I release what I have been conditioned to grip onto: fear, control, expectations, achievements, external validation, comparison, etc.

Releasing a scarcity mindset for that of abundance and knowing that I have everything I need inside of me, just like you.

I shed what no longer fits to make it easier to break open from the inside out, while shining my light, and inviting you to do the same so we can be free together. 

Fly, fly butterfly.

Mama Metamorphosis: A 24"x30" collage of items in my journal from 2020-2024- snapshots of my becoming